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Finding Sun on a Dreary Day

I decided to blog everyone…here goes my first try.

A look in my life for the outsiders wanting to look in.

Well, school has been starting to drain me. I have the same routine every single day. I wake up…6:15, shower, go to class, go to work…end by 5. So monotone and so unbearable. A week ago I began to tell myself ‘I can’t do’…there is no way I can even fathom getting through this year. New surroundings, not having home cooked meals anymore, not seeing my family each night, riding the trolleys instead of driving…kill me now.

But, then it hit me. It hit me like a dodge ball being thrown right at my face. Where was my faith at? Where had it gone? All of my hopeless nights of dreaming for something great to happen at school the next day meant nothing without thinking of Him. He needed to be the center of my life and I was placing Him last.

Last year was the year where my faith had grown immensely. I experienced something I was so grateful for, because without that experience I wouldn’t be who I am at this present moment in my life. The Lord had shown me Himself in ways which I thought were unreachable.

His love is so strong and unbreakable. He has been wanting me and waiting for me this whole time to live 100% for Him. And I think I’m finally ready…